Don't judge my path if u have not walked my journey, before you judge my life, my past or my character ...walk in my shoes, walk the path I have travelled, live my sorrow, my doubts, my fear, my pain and my laughter ...everyone has their own story ... this is my journey as a mother to a bubbly boy, Adam Danial, and a miracle boy a.k.a. my lil fighter named Ammar Danish ...
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Monday, March 30, 2009
splash!! ... splashhhh!!!!
Friday, March 27, 2009
60 EARTH HOUR ... jom tutup lampu!!!
Sabtu, 28hb Mac, 8:30-9:30 malam
yg pastinyer kepada peminat AF mmg kompemlah tak tutup TV kan ... termasuklah umah mak aku (mak, peminat setia AF aka pengkritik bebas tak berbayar) ... aku gak yg bagus pasal aku off suma suis kecuali suis fridge aku ... selain menyokong penuh usaha murni ni, sebab utama ialah aku balik umah mak aku ... ok gak tu kannnnn ... hehehehe
so sekiranyer korang berada di rumah hari sabtu ni (esok) ... demi bumi yg kita 28hb Mac dari pukul 8.30-9.30 malam duduki bersama ni, aku harap korang boleh off kan sebanyak suis yg boleh ... ikut logik masing2 lah yer ... kalau lam fridge tu byk bhan basah, takyah lah off fridge kang busuk ke hape dah membazir pulak ...
to all die hard fan of AF cam mak aku, takpelah korang kan mmg mcm tak sempurna idup tk tgk konsert AF, live lah pulakkan ... so korang on je lah TV tu ... tapi selagi boleh matikanlah suis2 yg lain ... contohnyer kalau selalu pasang aircond, sacrifice lah sket ... on je lah kipas, ok gak kan ... ;)
the campaign, which hopes to reach out to more than one billion people in 1000 cities around the world, encourage individuals, businesses and governments to switch off lights for just one hour on Saturday March 28, 2009 at 8:30pm to convey their support for action on climate change. Cities already committed to Earth Hour include Los Angeles, Las Vegas, London, Hong Kong, Sydney, Rome, Manila, Oslo, Cape Town, Warsaw, Lisbon, Singapore, Istanbul, Mexico City, Toronto, Dubai and Copenhagen.
2009 is a critical year in terms of the political decisions that will be made at global climate negotiations in December 2009. Earth Hour, aims to highlight the voice of the people of the world and represent a visual mandate for meaningful policy on climate change.
WHY SHOULD I VOTE EARTH?
Earth Hour began in Sydney in 2007, when 2.2 million homes and businesses switched off their lights for one hour. In 2008 the message had grown into a global sustainability movement, with 50 million people switching off their lights. Global landmarks such as the Golden Gate Bridge in San Francisco, Rome’s Colosseum, the Sydney Opera House and the Coca Cola billboard in Times Square all stood in darkness.
In 2009, Earth Hour is being taken to the next level, with the goal of 1 billion people switching off their lights as part of a global vote. Unlike any election in history, it is not about what country you’re from, but instead, what planet you’re from. VOTE EARTH is a global call to action for every individual, every business, and every community. A call to stand up and take control over the future of our planet. Over 74 countries and territories have pledged their support to VOTE EARTH during Earth Hour 2009, and this number is growing everyday.
We all have a vote, and every single vote counts. Together we can take control of the future of our planet, for future generations.
VOTE EARTH by simply switching off your lights for one hour, and join the world for Earth Hour.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
dia dah tumbuh gigi ... :)
si manja busyuk masham aku nih dah tumbuh gigi ... umur dah 1thn 4 bulan baru nk masuk 2 batang ... dua2 pun gigi atas ... kapak lak tuh!!! hubby aku ckp, kalau gigi kapak tu ikut dia .... hehehe ... ngaku lak ...
bila ammar senyum tak nmpak lagi gigi tu ... pasal dia blm keluar abis ... gigi yg 1st skali keluar is belah kiri depan ... masa nk tumbuh tu aku pun pelik ngan perangai ammar ... dia takmo org lain selain dari aku ... even kalau abah yg pegang pun dia boleh nangis sampai nk putus nafas ... tapi bila aku amik je dari abahnyer ... secara otomatik ammar diam lantas tersenyum manis cam pic kat bawah ni ... harus le abahnyer kecik ati kan ... tak psal2 lak ammar takmo langsung ngn dia ...
apa lagi, kelam kelibut le aku kan settlekan 'masalah' aku lam toilet tuh ... cepat2 aku pegi ke ammar, elok je aku dudukkan ammar atas riba ... ammar tersengih ... bley nok?!?? (lam ati aku berkata "ko ni kan mmg bdk bertuah ... sampai mommy ko nk berak pun tak senang! napenyer ko nyampah sampai tak boleh sgt nengok abah nih?!?")
satu lagi perangai aku notice semenjak dah ada gigi ni, ammar suka membebel ... bising mulut dia! pastu lagi satu, ammar suka duduk lam babycot dia nih ... tapi duduk je suka ... tido ttp takmo dlm tu ... pelik tul lah ...
ngah leka ... pandang aku pun takmo ... tak heran katanyer ... hehehe
walaupun pembesaran ammar agak lewat, tapi aku bersyukur sgt2 yg ammar masih bersama kami ... it is all worth it!
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
i'm relief!!! .... at least for time being ...
ammar nmpak soooo much better ... but,
ada but nyer ...
this morning, aku noticed something ...
bila dia meniarap, dia batuk ...
once, ingat it was nothing
twice, maybe coincident
masuk ke 3 & 4 kali ... camtu gak
nk kata apa?!??
definitely ... this is not coincident!
makna nyer apa?!??
makna nyer ... walau pun ammar nmpak ok
jgn cepat sgt hepi2 ... pasal tu aku reserve sket
at least for time being
monitor dulu ... ammar needs to be watched closely
dont take things for granted ...
dgn ammar tak boleh camtu ...
i learnt my lesson, from my experiences
masa jaga ammar sakit teruk dulu ...
dont expect tooo much, expect the worst ...
anything could happen
but at the same time, stay positive ...
complicated?!?? tak paham!??
its ok ... kalau tak nk paham pun takpe
just nak let out apa yg ada lam ati
just nak let out apa yg ada lam kpala otak aku nih
apa pun ... i'm relief, at least for time being ...
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
aku sedih .... =(
ngan stress ... merempuh jam
ngan penat ... byk keje kat opis
sampai2 umah, adik aku dah wat muka panik
ammar ngah tersedak ... cam choking ...
aku tanya start bile ... adik aku kata baru sgt
the moment dia dengar pintu keta aku kat bwh ditutup ...
aku terus ngadap ammar... still cam susah nk telan air liur sendiri ...
nape lak ni ... tetiba je ... pdhal dia sihat ... tak demam, tak selsema, tak batuk
spt biasa, aku ingatkan diri aku jgn panik ... pasal hubby aku cam dah panik
aku ingat doctor ckp kat aku dulu ...
"monitor dulu, lgpun u dah slalu masuk hspital, u dah tau when is the right time nk rush him to emergency, u know the simptom kan"
mmg aku tau ... all the simptom ... tapi ni anak aku ...
takut apa2 jadi, i would blame myself ... aku takmo nyesal!
my hubby take over, somebody's have to cook for the kids ...
my hubby pat him on his back ... ammar nmpak a bit better ... and tertido ...
aku sebok masak, tiba2 ammar batuk ... pastu cam choking ...
dang!!! this is not a good sign ... why?!?
aku basuh tgn siap2 ... berlari ke ammar
ammar batuk lagi ... aku korek mulut ammar ...
niat nk tolong dia ... kot2 ada kahak ... but nothing ...
tiba2 teringat kat tuty ... one of my dear fren ... early this year she was admitted in icu
for the same reason ammar did everytime dia kat icu ... pneumonia
tuty ckp kat aku ... "ur ammar is true fighter az, i have no idea camne he can survive after so many times kena pneumonia nih ... aku yg besar ni pun kena pneumonia rasa cam ... ya Allah , ko amiklah nyawa aku ... sakit tak terkata, umpama ada daun kering kat tekak ko ni, umpama ada rambut tersekat kat tekak ni ... tu yg batuk tak henti pasal nk hilangkan rasa sakit & uncomfortable tu" ... kalau tuty rasa camtu ... ammar apa lagi kan ...
aku sedih ... aku nanges ... menaip ni pun berjurai airmata aku ...
teringat smlm lepas aku korek mulut ammar ...
aku soh hubby bagi ventolin, 2 puffs ... tapi ammar still batuk2, sampai tak cukup nafas
aku pegang ammar, aku terbalik kan dia ... aku tepuk belakang dia
ammar tetiba jadi lesu ... longlai ...
aku baringkan ammar ... dia tk melonjak cam slalu ...
dia tak terkinja cam slalu ... dia layu ...
aku panggil, dia cam dengar tak dengar ...
aku selak baju dia ... nafas dia nmpak laju ... mmg laju ...
soh nina amik jam tangan aku ... aku kira kelajuan nafas ammar...
aku soh hubby aku pat belakang dia ... sambil tu aku amik beg baju
aku diam ... takde sape pun bercakap ...
sambil tu aku pack baju ammar ... pack baju aku, tapi aku pikir benda lain ...
aku pikir ... what should i do next ... aku pikir mcm2 kemungkinan
kebetulan time for ammar's daily puff ... serevent & flixotide
aku soh hubby aku bagi puff tu pada ammar yg layu atas bahu abahnya ...
abah baringkan ammar, terkejut ... baju ammar basah ... tak mungkin peluh sampai camtu
aku pegang, raba2 bdn ammar ... aku dah agak!
tiub dia leaking ... terus aku suspect ... punca ammar jadik gini tetiba mesti pasal G-tube tu, kebetulan mesin susu ammar pun bunyi ... menandakan susu dah abis
bersihkan bdn ammar, hubby bagi puffs ... ammar terlena
aku ckp ngan hubby aku "syg, kita tgk dulu camne ammar respon lepas bagi serevent & flixotide nih ... lagi 2 jam, kita bagi lagi ventolin ... if by 12 ni ammar tak ok mlm ni gak kita rush dia gi emergency"
tapi lam hati berdoa ... ya Allah, tolonglah ... kesiankanlah ammar ...
alhamdulillah ... dari pukul 9 sampailah pukul 12.30 mlm ... ammar tido lena
tapi agaknyer disbbkan panas ammar terjaga
tak tau kul brp, ammar tido balik ... tapi tak berapa lena
but he looks so much better
sampailah pagi ni
pukul 7.30 pagi, mcm ada yg tak kena, mesin susu ammar asyik berbunyi ...
padahal sblm ni takde masalah pun ...
mcm susu tu tak boleh nk ditolak masuk dlm perut ammar
aku tgk hidung ammar, aku perasan hidung dia kembang kempis menarik nafas
mcm baru lepas berlari ... tak sedap ati aku baringkan ammar
aku selak baju ammar ... nafas ammar laju lagi ...
mcm mlm tadi, aku rasa bdn ammar ...
mcm suam2 ... dedar .... aku risau
risaukan ammar ... kenapa nih??
lagi satu risaukan keje aku ... kwn aku yg boleh cover keje aku tak sihat
cuti sakit ... kesian gak kat dia, baru lepas operation last weekend ...
bos lak cam .... susah betul ... kalau ada anak sakit baru paham masalah aku agaknya!
hubby aku cam paham dilemma aku, dia volunteer amik emergency leave
baru aku lega sket ... tapi sket je ... pasal aku yg lebih arif pasal ammar
berbanding hubby aku ...
pasal aku yg berumahtangga kat spital jaga ammar everytime ammar admitted
jadi aku byk pengalaman yg mendebarkan ... mencemaskan waktu jaga ammar dulu
skang aku kat opis, curi2 wat entry ni dari tadi lagi ...
badan je kat opis ... tapi hati kat umah ...
kejap2 kang aku call umah tanya ammar ...
pesan mcm2 kat hubby aku ...
how i wish aku kat umah ngan ammar skang ni
aku risau ... aku sedih =(
p/s : ni suma pic2 smlm, yg baju putih tu sblm mandi pagi ... yg merah tu lepas mandi ...
Friday, March 20, 2009
Ammar's Physio (Part 6) & O.T. (Part 2) ..
takmo byk citer lah ... meh le tgk pic2 ammar beraksi ... ;)
OCCUPATIONAL THERAPY - PART 2 (9.00-10.00 am 13/03/2009)
sambil wat exercise ... sambil main ...
dah ammar asyik menanges je ... session pun dihentikan, takmo bagi dia penat pasal lepas o.t. session, ammar ada physio lak ... kul 10.30.
PHYSIO THERAPY - PART 6 (10.00-12.00 noon 13/03/2009)
so, next appt is next week ... tapi tk dpt the same day ... physio dpt le next week, o.t. lak dpt bln april pasal penuh ...
mashed potato ...
maklumlah, potato pun dah terang2 salah satu sumber karbo tambah lak kalau di masak ngan cream ... kalau diamalkan mmg kompem lah cutting bdn tu pun akan jadik cam potato gak! lagi2 jenis bdn cam aku yg senang sgt2 nk naik ... aku ni kalau mkn nasi 1 kali sehari je pun dlm masa seminggu... kompem hasilnyer akak bertambah kurang2 2 kilo yea kwn2 ... ada gak org yg mkn bagai nk rak, tolak batu dan kayu pastu ko bagi je lah mknan apa je semua dia ngap ... tapi badan ttp maintain ... lucky them kan!
anw, berbalik pada resepi kita hari ni ... iaitu mashed potato, sila lihat bahan2 dan cara2 menyediakan seperti dibawah ... hmmm, nape tetiba2 aku rasa ayat aku skema sket dari selalu ... ke perasaan aku je ...
250g butter
1 cwn susu
garam secukup rasa
serbuk parsley (jika suka)
2. kemudian tenggekkan atas api api yg perlahan, masukkan butter & susu sedikit demi sedikit .... dan kacau rata
haaa ... senang dan simple je kan ... pastu kalau tak abis boleh disimpan lam fridge & tahan sampai seminggu tau (bila simpan lam fridge jadik keras) ... bila nk mkn reheat je lam micro then, mashed potato itu jadik le lembut semula.
happy cooking!
sedikit tips
* susu boleh digantikan ngan cream dan ditambah ngan parmesan atau cheddar cheese utk effect rasa creamy yg maksimum!
* penggunaan butter dan susu mungkin lebih dan mungkin juga kurang, bergantung ngan kesesuaian anak tekak masing2